I stumbled across an episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer tonight while I was channel surfing. It was one of my favourite episodes from season three, The Wish. I haven't watched Buffy for quite a long time, but this drew me in again and made me miss the show all over again. I miss the characters, the stories and most of all I miss the sense of excitement I felt when I saw a new episode and rushed over to the ATPO board to find out what everyone else thought about it. Those were heady days for fandom, for me at least. Sad to say that a lot of the thrill has gone out of it, and so many have drifted away from ATPO and other fan sites since Buffy and Angel went off the air. There are shows that I really love, that I look forward to seeing, shows that I will rewatch on DVD, but none of them bring that sense of involvement and connection that Buffy did. I miss the wonderful conversations, the arguments, the philosophizing..and if I had a wish, it would be that somehow we could find that again. Oh, well, life moves on, stories end, and we have to find new ones to follow.
Still, I miss my show something fierce tonight.
Buffy was the show that brought me into the wide world of the internet, and introduced me to so many fine people, many of whom are here on LJ still. For that, I will always be grateful, and Buffy will always have that special place in my fannish heart.
There are other shows and fandoms I appreciate and love: off the top of my head I would name these as being closest to what I felt for Buffy, but they never quite have that something else that makes Buffy "my" show. Shows like Farscape, Babylon 5, Doctor Who and Battlestar Galactica, wonderful as they were, and are, never generated that kind of intense conversation. They were more shows I watched on my own, occasionally finding others to talk to about them, but never on the level that happened with Buffy, and Angel.
Oh, Show. I miss you.